Oxymoronic

"..may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height - to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge.....Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all we ask or think, according to the power that works in us..."  Ephesians 3:18-20

Ok, let me get it out by way of confession and full disclosure - I am sick as a dog today.  I wish I felt like pooh because that would be an improvement.  I can't be around anyone right now, can't talk, can hear out of one ear, my back is achy, and I have a throbbing pain right behind both eyes.  Other than that, I'm swell.

 As a result, I don't know that my brain fully thinks straight.  To start, I'm reading in Ephesians today and I'm struck by the fact that Paul exhorts me to comprehend the love of Christ, and then goes on to tell me that the love of Christ surpasses knowledge.  Unless I missed something, how do you comprehend the incomprehensible? 

Then he compounds my sinuses with this gem: God can do more than you ever imagined or could even think, but that power is not at work outside of you only........it is at work in you.  I don't even have the energy to start thinking about that one right now.

So, since I am running out of energy and maximizing brain cells simulataneously, let me cut to the chase on my thoughts here.  I could not help but think of the seemingly oxymoronic ways in which God works:

When you are weak, you are strong.  When you are poor, you are rich.  When you are persecuted, you are blessed.  When you are a servant, you are great.  When you realize what you can't comprehend, you are wise.

Crazy, isn't it?  You could probably add more to this list as you think about it, but what struck me was this:  The more I come to genuinely understand about what I don't understand, the more I begin to understand.  I know........read it again.

I will never understand the love of Christ.  But the more I realize what I don't understand, the more understanding of His love I get.  I don't really understand what I just said, but I think I am making sense..........humor me.  To know a love that surpasses knowledge is a magnet for me.........it draws me in.  The closer I get though, the bigger a sense of the magnitude I get AND experience.  That is where the knowledge part begins to grow - as we experience His love.

That's it - too tired and achy to do this anymore.